The Verbs #29 (undeserved)

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A few years ago, I was having the physical battle of my life! I had never dealt with physical ailments to this degree before, and I was so confused about what was going on in my body. I was scared, afraid and more worried than I ever let on. It came almost without warning. I was beginning to feel the tentacles of depression trying to take hold of me, so I immediately began praying for my mind. I also sought medical help because I had dealt with depression before. My doctor prescribed some medication and after assuring me I wouldn’t need this drug forever, I decided it was the best move for me.

Shortly after that, we went on our annual spring break trip, and the very next week, we headed out for our other annual trip, our honeymoon. We were going on a cruise for the first time in our lives, and we were so excited! It was an awesome time! No phones, no internet and really no issues.

Well, except save for one.

My lymph nodes began swelling all over my body while we were on the ship. I was starting to feel dizzy, fatigued and the sharp pains on the left side of my head would not let up! I disembarked from the ship, went straight to the airport and boarded the plane for home. I thought I was experiencing “sea legs” and motion sickness. The emergency doctor who sat beside me on the plane ride home (we flew Southwest so this was unplanned ~ I am positive he couldn’t wait for the flight to end because I was asking a hundred questions for real) reassured me that the cotton mouth, the dizziness, the fatigue and the swelling of my lymph nodes would disappear quickly now that I was back on land.

They didn’t.

I became extremely worried and five days after arriving home, I found myself at the doctor. So many questions, blood draws, tests and more questions. More doctor’s appointments, more meds and more tests awaited me after this initial appointment. I learned so much during this time and yet nothing they were prescribing or telling me to try, was touching my symptoms. This went on for about three months and finally I decided to seek another opinion. I liked him a lot. He was a Christian and he promised me that with God’s help, we would have a resolution to this soon! It seemed like I had new symptoms popping up each week including headaches, severe shooting pain in my head, hands cramping up and eye twitches to name a few. So many of my symptoms pointed to three major diagnosis’s. I refused to accept any of them, but I was so desperate for answers. I finally had an MRI and I am pretty sure I left every bit of blood I had in my right arm in those vials that day. The call came on Saturday morning from the doctor. My MRI was completely clear! No tumors, or any other signs of any major diagnosis’s! My blood work was “A+” per my doctor. Thankful does not even begin to describe it. But I still had no answers!

Fast forward six months, and I was sitting across from a Neurologist at Washington University in St. Louis, going through more testing, answering more questions, etc. After a few minutes passed, with confidence the doctor declared she had the answer; migraines. Mine had lasted about six months. To my surprise, she prescribed no medication and gave me some vitamin and herb remedies and told me what to avoid when it came to foods and drink. I went straight to Whole Foods, picked up everything she told me about and praised God all the way home that we now had answers!

Move ahead another four months and this is when this scripture came into play. My symptoms were not going away. I prayed, I fasted and I trusted God! I was having a morning where my head was full of pain, my hands were cramping so bad that my fingers were curling inward on their own and my lymph nodes were swelling again. I was scheduled to sing that day and I found myself in my husband’s office, on the floor, in complete agony. I was surrounded by praying people and one gentleman began to quote this scripture:

“Like a fluttering sparrow or a darting swallow,
an undeserved curse will not land on its intended victim.

Proverbs 26:2

Holy Bible, New Living Translation, copyright © 1996, 2004, 2015 by Tyndale House Foundation. Used by permission of Tyndale House Publishers Inc., Carol Stream, Illinois 60188. All rights reserved.

 

The devil does not want anyone walking around healed, healthy and whole! He will do whatever he wants to, to see that you are never walking around victorious! The last part of this verse really stuck out to me because I felt like I had this really big target on my back, and the enemy was doing everything he could to make sure something “landed” on me! My husband had had a dream about me about one week earlier. In this dream, there were people praying against me, not for me! He wasn’t sure what they were praying exactly, but he knew it wasn’t for my good! So, we began to declare this scripture over our lives, and especially over my health!

 

A year later I was symptom free and going along on my merry way, when bam, out of nowhere, a strong migraine knocked me flat on my back! I was devastated! We started praying this scripture with earnest and God revealed a lot to us both during this time! We trusted Him and He came through! We began to earnestly pray circles over my health, our marriage, our church, our children and our finances! If you haven’t read Mark Batterson’s book on praying circles around your life, you should go get it right now. Well, not right now, because I need to finish this story, but right after I’m done! Go get it! It will change your life! I digress. After we began praying these circles over us, things began to change. God began speaking to us about so many things and one day when I woke up, I realized I hadn’t had a migraine in almost a year! I was thrilled!

 

You see, when you decide that an undeserved curse dispatched by the enemy will not land on you, the atmosphere changes in your life! When you tell the devil, “no way, it ain’t happening”, it’s amazing what happens! Sometimes these curses are generational and sometimes these curses are put on us by those who wish us harm! Generational curses have no place in the life of the believer! Christ came to break every chain on our life and that is a chain that CAN be broken in your life! It doesn’t have to happen to you!  That is an undeserved curse! It doesn’t have to be that way for you!

 

Sometimes people wish us harm. I don’t like it and I don’t understand it and yet, I can’t say there haven’t been times I’ve silently wished this on others. It’s wrong. We are to forgive and move on, even if they’re in the wrong and you are in the right! That is another undeserved curse. Even if we do “deserve” a curse, Jesus came to bring us life and life more abundantly and to break every chain in our life! That is the power of the blood of Jesus!

 

If you are facing something in your life, trust that God is with you, He is for you and an undeserved curse cannot land on you! You are protected by the blood of Jesus! He has you covered! The devil won’t be able to see the landing pad! Rejoice in that today!

Written By: Melissa McKinnies

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